Her name had been in my heart, uttered by my lips, years before she was born.
The first day we met, I knew I was going to love her for the rest of my life.
On that joyful day, I couldn’t stand to be apart from her.
I wanted so much to become everything she needed for me to be.
I never wanted to leave her side. Yet I knew at some point the doctor had to take her away and I had to let her go.
When she woke up in the early hours of the morning, I stayed up with her.
I sat and watched television with her.
I played games with her, fed her, burped her.
I did everything I could to let her know I wasn’t going to leave her side.
But when morning came, when I had to go back to work, I knew that at some point, I had to let her go.
Today is her birthday.
I was given the chance to spend time with her and I took advantage of it.
She turns eleven today. She has grown so much.
We sat together and talked. She was sick today and didn’t go to school.
It made me ache that much more for the things that I’m missing out on.
I wanted so much to spend more time with her, but when she started to leave, I knew my arms would never be able to stretch out far enough to reach her.
I had to let her go.
Happy Birthday, Princess.
3 comments:
Happy Birthday Noel Lewis's princess...from Terry
hi Noel
Oh how I can relate to this story. I have a son who I did everything for. I was a teenager when he was born. His mom wanted to abort him and I did everything in my power to stop that.
When he was born, it was the GREATEST day of my life and how I love him. And for the 1st 8 months of his life I was there for him as he was my love and passion.
Under bitter circumstances, his mother and grandparents disappeared with him. And after 10 years of searching for him, I found him. Yet he hates me because of the brain washing that he had received for the last 14 years now. I write him 2 times a month now and have for the last three years but he wants nothing to do with me, my wife or his other 2 brothers and baby sister.
So though I didn’t want to, I had to let him go and love him with a hope that he will one day love me. I know what it is that you are feeling and it sucks. But the Lord is good and I am grateful that the Lord sustains and causes the pain to be less than it was. It is still there but it is more tolerable now.
Bill
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