Note to Self - Revisited

This is from an old post.
When I was little, my great-grandmother always had a way of making me feel secure when I felt the need for a security blanket.
Now that I'm an adult I still need and look for that sense of security and a reaffirmation to my belief that things will turn out okay.
This post provides just that ever-present blanket.

I know that you are having difficulty reconciling to the fact that you have to take a detour before reaching your goals. And because of this, you have felt slivers of resentment and disappointment that sometimes have caused you to spiral down to bouts of sadness and sorrow.

I guess the reason why I am writing you now is because I want you to know that there are no unanswered prayers. When you think that God has been silent, his silence in itself is the answer. It doesn’t mean that he has forgotten all about you. All He wants you to know that it is not time yet. You have to realize that you are not limited by your failures but only by your fears. There is so much to claim, so much to discover and so much to conquer. Think positive and let go of those fears. One day, you will be living your dream.

I know at times that the challenge of everyday takes its toll on you. You have to remember that you only have to raise your face to the sky and bask in that silent appreciation of life. That somehow, your soul's yearnings are prayers in themselves, beacons that soar to the heavens to float gently into God's loving hands. And with that, I guess this goes to say that you should never forget to pray. A lot of things in this world happened because of prayers. Oh yes...good things, great things, and small ones, some unseen and some unnoticed, but still brought on by prayers. I have always believed that the powers that be are always there to nurture our dreams, to take care of us and to keep us safe. That somehow, as we go through life, these prayers envelope us and bring us safely to our place in the sun. Believe in the power of your prayers.

Along the way, you will meet a lot of people. Different kinds of people with different backgrounds. Some maybe similar to your own and that is an opportunity for friendship. But others have been given a different hand and that is an opportunity for kindness. Never pass up the chance to be kind to someone even if you think kindness is not deserved. It is not for you to judge. We all deserve kindness. Including you. You have to know that you have to be kind to yourself too.

Forgive yourself for the mistakes you have made, for the failures that you could have dealt with in a different way. In the same way, forgive others too. Forgive them for hurting you, for betraying you, for giving up on you, for causing you pain. Forgive them until you feel raw inside. It is the only way you can be liberated from disappointments and resentments. Above all, forgiveness frees your soul from the shackles of hatred. And when you become free of hate, there is nothing left but love.

Allow yourself to love, to believe in love. Allow others to love you and get lost in that wonderful feeling of love. I understand your fears that if you love, you are open to pain and sorrow. Love regardless. It is only when you know pain and sorrow that you truly loved. And it is only when you truly loved that you truly lived.