Wednesday, December 13, 2006

Vast Distances

The sun, the nearest star to earth is so big, a million spheres the size of our earth can fit inside it.
The sun is 93 million miles away from earth.
If one inch represented 10 million miles, I would have to take one huge step to get there.
I would have to walk forty miles to get to the next nearest star.
The second nearest star is 300,000 times as far away as the sun.
The Milky Way is 100,000 light years across in diameter and 3000 light years thick

Knowing that the earth is but a tiny speck in the vast universe, this holiday season has made me feel that much more insignificant.
I don’t know what hurts more: Coming home to an empty house or wanting so badly to be with my children that every beat of my heart aches with searing pain.
They may as well be a million light years away.

I know that God is with me constantly.
I know that He always has His arms around me, comforting me.
I just wish it didn’t have to hurt this bad.

Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. Psalm 139: 23-24

3 comments:

Terry said...

Dear Noel....When I saw that you had posted after so long a time I was happy to know that you were OK.
But then after reading this, how sad I feel for you. Your heart is hurting every beat, and your arms are feelng the pain of wanting to hold those children so bad.

I cannot think of any scripture to even quote to you.
What right do I have anyway of doing that when even though I feel sorrow for you, I still do not truly know how much sadness you are going through?

I can only tell you that I will be praying for you Noel...with Chrisitan love Terry.

Terry said...

Hello there!! I just saw your name on the links of my blog and thought I would check out YOUR blog but sad to say I haven't got a real lot of time. I have to pick up kids for Sunday School..Catch you later and thanks!!...From Terry

Hey! You are last on my list but way UP the list in my thoughts!!

Lauren-Mary said...

Hi Noel- just swinging by to see how you are doing. I'm so sorry to hear you won't be with your children at Christmas. It must be hard for you. Rest assured you are in my prayers.
Keep in mind though that you will NEVER be completely alone. The Lord is watching over you and your children.

*L